Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Out of step

My entire life, I have felt like I was out of step with everyone around me.  I didn't think I was more or less special than other people, just that I am different.  I never seem to be doing quite what other people expect me to.  I don't like the same things my peers do, and I just never seem to end up in the right place, at the right time, regardless of how closely I follow societal directions to get to a particular destination. Of course, most people feel this same way at some point in time.

It begs the question, though, "Why?"  Are some of us destined to always be off?  Is it just dumb luck? Is there something wrong with me?  Or, does it go like this: 

"All through my life I've had this strange unaccountable feeling that something was going on in the world, something big, even sinister, and no one would tell me what it was."
"No," said the old man, "that's just perfectly normal paranoia. Everyone in the Universe has that.” 

I don't know.  Sometimes, being and feeling different is tons of fun. I do and say things that make people goggle at me like I've grown another head.  Other times, it's lonely, because I feel self conscious and isolated and unable to figure out why other people do the things they do.  Anyhow, that's the burning thought of the day.  I'm off to prepare for the last PTA meeting of the year. Ciao! 

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