Monday, August 3, 2015

Getting nothing done

Where did my ambition go? Somewhere that is not here, for sure. I started the summer with a list of projects and plans that I was determined to get done. We're now three weeks from the start of school, and I'm over it all.

Maybe it's pregnancy exhaustion. Maybe the craziness of last month sapped my energy. Maybe I'm just lazy. Maybe I not off more than I could chew. The fact remains that I got very little done, and I'm cranky and annoyed and frustrated. I feel like I failed at something.

I realize this feeling is silly and doesn't help get anything done. I need to forgive myself, but more importantly, I need to start making more realistic goals. I don't need to be Wonder Woman all the time. It's not good for me, and it gives everyone around me permission to ask too much of me.

I'm making a mid-year resolution, right now. I will be kinder to myself. I will be more reasonable when I set expectations, and I will honor my own accomplishments rather than berating myself.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Good news is hard to write

I've been pondering how to announce some good news to the people in my life who don't already know. It's been surprisingly hard.  On one hand, I'm excited, and on the other, I feel like I'm bragging. Saying nothing isn't an option, not to mention it's pretty awkward.  Saying something makes me feel exposed and vulnerable.  I'm obviously driving myself crazy here.

Here goes: Ta da! I'm pregnant again.  After months of trying, a lot of worry, some scary moments, and weeks of insanity, I have made it to the second trimester.  In a couple weeks, we'll see our little one on the anatomy scan (not that we haven't had six peeks for other reasons).  Our immediate families have been informed. Most of our friends know, and we feel a little more comfortable telling everyone.

Now that I've said this, I feel like I can sit down and write of some posts about interesting experiences I've had related to pregnancy. I've learned a lot in the weeks I've been silent, and I'd like to share.  I certainly won't be writing exclusively about pregnancy, though.